❤︎ 03.11.2026 | 10:25 AM ❤︎

Hiii I'm back again with some more UGHHHHH news!!! Yaayyyyy-... So recently I talked about having an apprenticeship. Yeah that's uh.. obsolete? now. Man-, bro- they KICKED ME OUT. And their dumbass reason was "omg your skills don't meet our expectations".

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DON'T MEET YOUR EXPECTATIONS? Why the HELL did they have expectations in the first place??! It's an apprenticeship... I'm here to learn. Man I had a bit of experience already, I already knew HTML and CSS so I definitely had an advantage compared to some other random kid they could've hired... I know how to use VSCode, I know about basic Design principles like,, come on man lmao. I know for a fact that they kicked me out because they can't AFFORD keeping me there. But like- don't lie to me??? Just fucking tell me the truth holy shit. I'm still so angry about this even if it happened last week.

The worst thing about this is, I chose this apprenticeship instead of university because I thought work experience is the better choice, since it seems to be valued better. Yeah cool bro, I didn't learn shit. Neither at school OR at work. They tell me "You're not good enough" or whatever, after they didn't give me a SINGLE programming assignment. They couldn't've known how good or bad I was. Near the end they gave me some stupid Javascript assignment that I struggled with because OBVIOUSLY I struggle if it's the first real assignment I get bro. It was something about building that "game of life" thing or whatever. Like ok??? I studied Javascript at work but I still don't really know shit about it. It's just stupid. They couldn't've possibly kicked me out because I struggled with that AFTER 3 MONTHS BTW. They barely gave me any time.

Then they tell me I'm more of a design person, which is probably true yeah, but it was obvious from the start, idk why they chose me then. The funniest thing to me is just how the first actual and big assignment I got was a UI DESIGN ASSIGNMENT. And then they got the guts to complain about me not knowing how to code and only knowing how to design. Like are you mental LMAO-

Ugh... whatever I'm still angry about all of this, especially after they called me unreliable after having the worst 2 months of my life because of driving classes. Lmao- I constantly got to work 1-2 hrs later (they KNEW ABT IT) and had to work overtime to make up for the time I lost like.. twice a week. For 2 months... And then I even had to help out at the restaurant every once in a while. I was just so doneeee bro. And I get told I'm unreliable because I missed this one stupid DUMBASS appointment with a CLIENT (which I shouldn't even have any contact with until the 2nd or 3rd year btw) because this dumb appointment got postponed THREE TIMES until it landed exactly on my drivers exam. I was obviously tired after that so I called and told them, they say it's ok and later they use it as an argument to throw me out. ???????????????? PLEASE LMAOOO.

Anyway this turned into a huge rant. Once again. To say some more positive things, I met my new bestie again at work and we went to the Arcade together which was my best time there yet. We also went to an anime convention in Hanover called "Nicon" and I bought some p cool stuff there that I couldn't find at our local store. But I yap more about this on my Convention page.

Aaaand some more "good" (?) news- I talked about Devil Survivor 2 last time and I finally beat the game and everything. Idr if I mentioned which route I picked and all last time. I ended up going with the Yamato route (obviously-) and honestly? It was GOOD but not as edgy as I thought it would be?! LMAOO I thought it was gonna super edgy for some reason. I also played the extended story thing which was another good 30hrs of gameplay. Was also pretty good but there were some things that bothered me that I won't mention because spoilers... I guess?? idk if anyone cares but yeah. I went with Yamato's route again but that was honestly SUPER lame LMFAO I mean I thought all routes were gonna be lame because there was no extreme one. So I just went with my fav :3c hehe. Anyway, I'm yapping too much abt this game, TLDR: I finished it, it's peak, was just different than expected. Also right omfg I watched the terrible anime with my boyfriend and I laughed so much. Like it was better than expected but still so bad- BUT the Hibiki(protag)/Yamato fanservice was pretty good. I think these two should just kiss and make out at this point. Thank u for the food, whoever made this.

Anyway um... Yeah this post is pretty long but whatever- I just need to wait a whole ass year again to start studying which is the only thing that actually made me sad that day- Just worried about my future. And ig because I can't see my bestie daily anymore. It is what it is I guess (copium).